Snow day?

Today was a snow day, which was, well, to be quite honest... sooo so uneventful. Not like the good-ol days back when we were chilluns. A snow day used to mean that we would go outside and roll around in the snow until we could no longer feel our extremities. But now, well, I just feel stuck indoors. We didn't get invited to go sledding with a big group of people from Cru, which is totally understandable since we aren't really that tight with them yet, but it was still a bit lame to sit around indoors when everyone was out having a gay time. 

Maybe tomorrow will be another snow day and we can REALLY utilize the white weather!

Whatever.

But I still love us. I still just love being able to spend time with my amazing girlfriends. Taquitos. Besties. Loves. 

  [all names apply]

I love them!!!! Gosh, I'm so incredibly blessed to have friends like Kailee, Jackie, and Alena. They're amazing.

Annnnd, today we signed the lease to our apartment for next year! Heck yes!!! The number is 468...which is great because it's the last three digits of my cell phone number, which I'm pretty sure is a good sign, right?

We knocked on the door of the apartment to see who was living there and maybe glimpse at what it looked like, and there were a few girls that lived there and they were so dear! They showed us around the place (which was immaculantly clean) and we got to see our future home!!! It's so crazy that we will actually have our own place. Dude, and I was just thinking about how although we'll all have our own bedrooms, I really don't think that there will be very many times where we're gonna want to be apart, even in different parts of the house. We'll probably end up rotating rooms to study and talk in. BAHHH I can't wait!!!!

It's so strange, because right now I'm actually enjoying studying. Whattt???

Anatomy, nonetheless. 

I just think it's fun to know stuff. Which sounds sooo stupid, but it's fun to finally be smarter than other people in one area. Like I can walk around campus and meet a journalism student and know that I know more about the way their skin is formed than they do. I can tell them that they're covered in keratinized simple squamus cells with a deep layer of mitosis. 

Cool!

So I'm gonna go to bed now and dream about things that will make me happy.

He Knows Me.

It's so beautiful to think about how much God loves me. Okay, like honestly He loves me sooo so much. Gosh, there is no way I could possibly ever comprehend how much He loves me! But because He's God and that means that He knows everything and everything about me... then that means that He is a part of everything about me. Like with my dancing... he knows every single thing about it. He knows how much it hurts to do a devellope, He understands that I love that indulgent moment of extending my arms from east to west, my Father knows how hard it is to do a deep lunge and then lift up into a triple pirroutte. And He is there in those moments! He is breathing with me, enduring with me, sharing the same joy that I am. 

It's so mind-blowing that God could love me so much that he would want to be in the dance studio with me for five hours. He watches me, He dances with me. Today in church, we were singing a worship song and this verse particularly caught me, 

"You dance over me while I am unaware, You sing all around but I never hear the sound"

Oh, now isn't it just awesome to know that Somebody loves us sooo so much, that He is there even when we don't realize it? He never ever abandons, never gets bored of me, always wants to hear what I have to say, He's amazed by my every move. This Father is soo in love with all of His children. And I am one of them! We all are! Ahh, I just love that. He's probably singing the most beautiful and perfect love song to me right now... and even though I can't hear it, just knowing that He is there and doing it anyways still makes me happy enough.

My love for you is deep, Father. It's growing bigger and more different everyday for You. I just want You to know that I'm trying. I'm trying to love You the way that You deserve to be loved. It will never be enough, but I will give You what I can. Thanks so much for using my dancing to speak to me. What an awesome gift! I love it! You sure know how to give the best birthday presents. You're amazing. And I love you!!! 

Passionate Rambling

I just want to say, that I love dancing so much. Okay, now I know that that sounds like a childish statement, but truly right now all I want to do is dance. I haven't been dancing for about 2 weeks now, because I'm not at school, and I feel like my body is ready to explode. 

Words Cannot Describe

I breathe, 

I sink,

I melt into the earth.

Explode, retract,

Pick me up, 

Let me fly.

Wonderscape of floating,

Changing, and 

Rearranging:

Take me as I am.

Sprinting at full force,

Collapsing then colliding.

Moving is surviving,

My body is effortlessly falling,

But not without control;

Not without the knowledge of knowing,

Knowing that this is what I have,

To give.

Give, give, give.

Release, 

Let it go.

This is my surrender.

These are my open wounds.

Take and cover, 

Band-aid and heal.

My life, yours.

All insides, out

And expelled, to

You.