He Knows Me.

It's so beautiful to think about how much God loves me. Okay, like honestly He loves me sooo so much. Gosh, there is no way I could possibly ever comprehend how much He loves me! But because He's God and that means that He knows everything and everything about me... then that means that He is a part of everything about me. Like with my dancing... he knows every single thing about it. He knows how much it hurts to do a devellope, He understands that I love that indulgent moment of extending my arms from east to west, my Father knows how hard it is to do a deep lunge and then lift up into a triple pirroutte. And He is there in those moments! He is breathing with me, enduring with me, sharing the same joy that I am. 

It's so mind-blowing that God could love me so much that he would want to be in the dance studio with me for five hours. He watches me, He dances with me. Today in church, we were singing a worship song and this verse particularly caught me, 

"You dance over me while I am unaware, You sing all around but I never hear the sound"

Oh, now isn't it just awesome to know that Somebody loves us sooo so much, that He is there even when we don't realize it? He never ever abandons, never gets bored of me, always wants to hear what I have to say, He's amazed by my every move. This Father is soo in love with all of His children. And I am one of them! We all are! Ahh, I just love that. He's probably singing the most beautiful and perfect love song to me right now... and even though I can't hear it, just knowing that He is there and doing it anyways still makes me happy enough.

My love for you is deep, Father. It's growing bigger and more different everyday for You. I just want You to know that I'm trying. I'm trying to love You the way that You deserve to be loved. It will never be enough, but I will give You what I can. Thanks so much for using my dancing to speak to me. What an awesome gift! I love it! You sure know how to give the best birthday presents. You're amazing. And I love you!!!